Golden Anniversery

Fifty years ago this week Pastor & Mrs. Ronald W Smith were married in Houston Texas.....

She borrowed a dress and he the cash for the license...

Over the next 20 years they became known as Mom & Dad to the five of us….

This week, my four siblings and I honor them with a 50th reception in Lufkin Tx….

Dad pastored for 40 years and recently retired for the second time….

Mom was right there with him every step of the way…

They taught us to love God, family, truth and the work of God…..

Their addiction to church work was passed on to us….

God has been good to them and they are able to enjoy their retirement years without pressure….

So this week……

Their five children and our respective families pause our lives and gather with them and a host of friends from around the world……

We celebrate their marriage…..

We celebrate their legacy….

We their children rise up and call our parents blessed….

And with this note I would like to remind my siblings……

I called them Mom & Dad first!!!

Tonight I allow candor to guide my fingers….

This year will never qualify as my best….

In April, Tracie faced a major surgery….

Two weeks later my most trusted person left our staff and church….

I was staggered and grieve to this day….

Especially remembering we were once referred to as Mom & Dad….

One week later CUPC had a major financial crisis that I carried alone….

Then the next week….

My wife was awakened via a dream and it was revealed to us via the Holy Ghost our daughter Redonia had been involved in an inappropriate relationship and would soon be an un-wed mother…..

In a single month, this 1 – 2 – 3 punch staggered me….

I have never felt such despair before…..

My prayer began to sound like this….

Lord, please do not let my faith fail me…..

I began to ask God for mercy…

I asked CUPC for mercy….

I asked every individual I encountered for mercy….

God was faithful……

Mercy comes in many packages…..

A package called family that offered understanding and support….

Packages like the entire CUPC family gathering around us with forgiveness and grace….

Mercy like CUPC asking I show the same mercies to my own that I had shown to them and theirs….

Mercy packaged in an entire camp meeting being stopped as the preacher left the stage and walked to where I sat in the back with a personal word from God….

Mercy with Bishop Wayne McClain praying for my three kids for and hour and a half on Friday night of camp meeting….

Mercy like new friends becoming intimate friends….

Mercy like old relationships dissolving because they would be unhealthy….

Mercy like a vacation doing absolutely nothing but rest….

I long ago learned to never ask God why….

I learned long before this year to accept change and problems and to accept responsibility for things….

Therefore I do not question HIM….

Rather , I quietly walk in the Peace of God…..

Mercy came to me in the form of knowing that I must take ownership of these issues….

For if I did not control them…

They would control me….

And that pride could not be an issue….

Therefore it was mandatory that pride not manipulate me to cover or hide truth…..

These thoughts bring me to the following realities…

#1 Tracie’s body is healing from surgery and she is stronger, thereby we are stronger….

#2 The financial crisis was taken care of as always….

#3 Trusted people move on and I will one day trust again.….

#4 Life and pregnancy are a process that take time and move forward at their own pace…..

#5 I might not be given the measure of grace I ask for but the measure I am given will be sufficient for the day….

#6 Being granted grace mandates I must always be graceful…..

#7 Becoming a grandpappy was inevitable…..

#8 Designer grandparent names are ignorant but a cool kind of ignorant…..

#9 I will soon be known as Poppy…..

#10 My grand-kid is gonna be cuter than yours…..

Friends

Have you ever had life do a U-turn on you?

Live many times takes turns you never expected…..

Tis those moments that you find yourself relying on God….

Family…..

And friends….

Most of us have trusted others to only be reminded that life is fickle and so are people when the trusted one proves to be unworthy of that trust….

Most know the feelings of vulnerability when friendship and trust is stripped or tossed aside…..

It is in the moments of such weakness and tears you make new discoveries….

The discovery that those you thought were friends and trustworthy really were not worthy of your trust….

And the friend you counted on really was never numbered among your friends….

Then surprisingly one discovers friends he never knew of….

Relationships born in the midst of heartache become the dearest…..

When mutual vulnerability is shared…..

Tears mixed with hugs and hurting hearts….

Truly trustworthy friendships emerge….

Trust is extended….

Then held close….

And lifelong relationships burst into life….

One Thing Never Changes

Wow.....

What a roller coaster ride the last few months have been....

Change is inevitable....

So are surpises....

And then there are those life changing events that leave you forever different....

We have seen several of those of late....

However amid all the fun....

I have come to love my family more than ever....

CUPC has become more dear than I can express....

And Jesus never changes....

His constancy is the only real thing that never ceases to be the same....

Jesus is the same yesterday and today and forever....

So while life provides change....

And church is ever evolving....

He continues...

Unchanged....

Ain't this the truth

Texas District Camp Meeting 2010

My bunch arrived at the campgrounds this year....

Battered, bruised and banged up.....

But the Lord had prepared a special rest and refreshing for us....

From a direct word from God from the pulpit for me...

Lots of hugs for Tracie from many...

Friends and family circling us with love....

To my kids all being renewed in faith and the Holy Ghost when anointed by Bro McClain....

We head home this morning refreshed, renewed and filled with....

Expectation.....

The CUPC family really does not want to miss Sunday night this week.....

His Glory Revealed

The Devil dropped by to chat and the conversation drifted to Job….

Have you thought about him the Lord asked?

Yes Lord, but you have a hedge around him and his stuff so I cannot get to him….

So God moved the hedge back….

Have you ever noticed that sometimes God moves your hedge back and life comes at you from every angle?

Seems that there are seasons that the hedge is back and the Devil has free range in your life….

And when he does all those fiery darts of the enemy assault your mind and spirit….

Then he allows those fiery trials to engulf you but tells you they are no big deal…

Yeah right!

Fiery darts of depression, oppression, sadness, suicide, and the tsunami of fiery trials of divorce, failed relationships, failed kids or failed careers….

Sometimes the fiery darts turn into fiery trials that sure seem like fiery Hell….

You have been there too I see!

But Peter kept talking and reminds us that in a short while…..

The Lord’s glory is going to be revealed in us…

This I do not understand….

Why does he allow the fiery darts and fiery trials to come so He can get glory from it?

No, this is a hard thing….

But when I build up my host holy faith and pray in the Holy Ghost….

I can see through a glass darkly and barely comprehend…

That indeed His glory one day soon will be revealed in me….

Kinda like the fellow who was born blind and the Pharisees asked Jesus if he or his parents had sinned…

Neither was the Lord’s answer…

And then the great revelation….

This man was blind so that the Son of Man might be glorified….

OK……

So the poor guy was born blind and for a lifetime of frustration and poverty he has stumbled around just so Jesus can get some glory?

Yup….

For Peter goes on to tell us that soon the glory of the Lord will be revealed in us and we will be very happy about it….

The pain will be worth the gain….

And the blind man could only say….

I once was blind but now I see…..

So God moved the hedges back a bit and Job dealt with his own fiery darts and trials, losing everything but his nagging wife….

And integrity…

But if you just keep reading you will learn….

That in the end the Lord revealed His glory in Job and blessed him with more than he had lost in the beginning….

Some days and some things I just do not understand…..

But I intend to hang around and see His glory revealed…..

For some reason….

I just do not think I will regret my decision…..